Pregnancy Dilemma

It’s been a year and four month since I’ve been married with my beloved husband. I wasn’t ready to get pregnant at first till I realized last March 2013 that I have cyst problem. I went to a local clinic nearby and she gave me Evening Prime Rose Oil to make the ovarian cyst shrink. However it’s been a few months after that but the cyst still there. After a while, I changed my mind to get pregnant due to my increasing age, unfortunately I still couldn’t conceive because having this ovarian cyst. The generous female doctor then helped me to make an appointment at a better place to help me conceive and get rid of my 3-4cm cyst. After changing a few pregnancy planning pills to make my menstrual circulation goes normal and get rid of my cyst; and instead of my body weight become drastically fat, I get a good result about my cyst last March 2014. It shrunk and now I’m free of the cyst problem. I felt happy, joy and praise to Allah for helping me to get rid of my cyst problem. Alhamdulillahi Rabbil Alamin…

Now my problem is I need to get pregnant because I’m sick of reading friend’s status at facebook about their bump belly, their kids, theirs new born babies, and they even uploaded their new babies doing things they wondered and cheers about and more. I feel annoying with their better luck while I been hard to get anything I wanted. The doctor once told me to intercourse with the husband on my ovulation period based on my menstrual history and with a medication help, but until now it shows negative result. I bought lots of medication syrups for both of my husband and me, seeds-applicator lubricant and more but it tore me more because we didn’t really do the math as it suppose to be. My man always busy because of his career as a sport coach; Instead of watching over his athletes, he also do all the sports movements so it’s not like newlywed whom having sex like 3-4 times a day. Plus, with this kind of symptoms, I always out of mood of having it together.

Maybe Allah knows better, after have my menstrual period these coming future; doctor already advice me to make an appointment after my 8 days of having my period to inject me a hormone thing to give better percentage of conceive a pregnancy. Guess what, I wonder if that moment my romance between me and my husband will bloom. If me and my husband better with or without any kids, its Allah’s matter, that’s the reason why things happen today. May Allah help me and my husband in our journey of life, Amen.